Melancholic meta musings about the desire to keep creating zines and meeting others that do so as they filter in and out of lives and through zine spaces. Jonas handles discussion of aging in subcultures that focus on youth told through a story of attending a zine fest that turned frightening when an old friend's mind slipped into a chaotic and possibly dangerous psychotic episode.What do you do when you can't reach that person inside who you still care for when something else seems to be telling them lies. When do you let go of a friendship of over a decade?